Month: September 2010

SHH (LPO) – Wild, Wet Fun…

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I woke up late, after midday – I felt cold last night, I don’t seem to rest well when I’m cold. I met for afternoon games which involved water games: water volley ball which envolved water balloons thrown and caught or drenching people.

A lot of fun. Thankfully, the sun was about – very quick to dry until a plastic box full of water got thrown over me and other boxes over others. That took a long time to dry as the weather changed and sun went hiding.

I went to the pool later in the day… I went just to say “hi” but ended up in the pool chatting and well, Supprisingly the water was warm, not hot but comfy. It was apparently 29’C – I dont think it was. The wind was cool, we stayed in the pool until the sun came out – we were waiting a while.

In the evening, the weather changed nasty – heavy rain, followed by lots of heavy rain that was louder than people talking, and music playing – streams appearing outside, and waterfalls off the roof. I was glad I was inside, and very glad I got a rain coat, packed it and brought it with me.

Some wierd games, with silly prizes but it looked entertaining. Night finished around 1.30am when we were encouraged to leave the bar. It was meant to close around 1am, just no one really moved, and drinks were even served after 1am so that was never going to happen. I’ve had a good day all in all, could have done with going to the shops and apparently missed a party while I relaxed. Sorry I missed it, but happy for what i’ve done too.

Time for bed now, I’ve had some valerian Tea to help me sleep (as I slept in so long). Its not worked yet. But probably will soon.

SHH (LPO) The Travelling Beginning

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SHH (LPO) The Travelling Beginning

My journey beggins at around 8.00am to go to Nottingham, we made good time and were there quite early. The bus hadn’t arrived, but was in a different place to it was last time, it was actually where it was meant to be so got on for the long trip to Portsmouth ferry port. After some interesting driving from the bus driver. He made some good turns with the huge coach around some quite tight corners.

On the boat we went and watched Shrek 4 – I’ve seen it in 3D – this wasn’t in 3D however it was really funny, and had the added dimension of movement with the boat movement.

There has been a lot of laughter and talking going on so far.

We arrived at LPO in France around 6.30pm, we were meant to be there around 5pm however a pickup of people at train station and airports were running late and the bus waited for them so arrived late on.

It was a good night of introductions and a kind of trusting right away, an instant friendship and laughs. Nice mixture of foods and wine on the welcome buffet, followed by introductions to the site team and the night continued.

I watched as I saw people mingle, and joined in but felt some with more charism, working the groups. It was easy to see, and although they projected joy within the group, it felt they were controlling the group and people yet hiding something deep within. I couldn’t read any more, and somehow that inticed wanting to know more, I still don’t know what to think but have chosen to think – if they want me to know they will say and leave it at that.

What is stopping me from doing what I want to do and be

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What is stopping me from doing what I want to do and be. Before I have blamed expectations, or medical reasons but in reality none of that should really stop me. I’ve always had my family back me in whatever I choose to do even if it seems odd sometimes.

I recall talking with them one time, about myself younger and some of the passions I had. I used to be so enthousiastic about the environment and animal care and try to fight for causes as much as someone could while at school… This usually involved letters that never got quite completed and talking with chat and discussions about what could be done but in some time I lost the passion for things.

I was told they were suprised that I had not joined some organisations like greenpeace with my earlier passion for things. I stopped going for what I really wanted because I thought that I was expected to be something else. For a long time, I have tried to live up to others expectations to realise that some of the time those expectations never existed.

Over the past couple of years, from about the age of 27 (I’m 31 now) I started going for things I wanted to try and do – From trampolining to dance, and the many types of dance. I really enjoy it and slowly I am getting better at it, I’m a slow learner at it but really do enjoy it all the same.

I thought people would be “funny” about me going for it and at first some were… but most, if not at first realised it made me happy and then supported me in it. This year at harvest, I went on the ministry team and not stewarding and althou it was quite difficult it really was nice the support I got from people. I was amazed by those that knew me and those i’d just met on how much support there is out there.

Its taken me a long time to realise that I am the one who makes the difference in life, that if I choose to do something I should go for it whole heartedly because with passion you can’t wait to get started, and don’t want to stop and only stop to rest. There is so much I want to do, and I feel I’ve really waited too long to getting round to it.

I am really glad I started writing these notes online, as its allowed me to see the progression and changes in attitude and read back comments left, and messages received.

I’ve never actually known what I want to do in life, but I do feel that what ever that may be…. Its coming sooner now than ever before and I’m looking forward to it. I can do what I’m doing already effectivly however I want to do something passionitly and joyous at the same time – something to want to get up and started, and to help others as well as new things because of it developing myself and others around me.

Its nice to have some kind of target now, and this time its ALL about ME… and where I want to be and what I want to do.