Last friday the 13th [feb 09] I turned 30, it was a good day and night and I see more and more friends getting closer to that day of their own.

Some this week, others next, more weeks and months ago and future. No one seems to be making a Big deal about it althou its a marker in life.

Since connecting on facebook with so many friends from school time and seeing that they too are turning 30 – so many of us that had lost contact now seeing a little glimpse of each other as we’ve changed and grown – How we now look, the types of job we do and families we’ve made.

So much has changed from the views of the early teens in the early 1990’s – Are we successful, are we still here. Has the world not blown itself up or we killed it off yet.

Are the things we do now changing the future – are we the same people we were then or have we changed, grown, shrunk, lost faith, gained confidence.

I always wanted to make one of those “time capsule” things – bury it in a garden and dig it up in the future to see if what we thought would happen does.

I’ve looked through past journals over the last year as I came across them – Glad I’ve taken up typing as my writing is awful. Often I feel the same things I felt then but the future or now the past as we see it is nothing like what I predicted.

I am glad to say I still have many good friends from that time, still that I keep in contact and many of them turning the mid sized 3-0 this year 🙂

But nothing new is flying, there is no peace on earth and people don’t always say the truth but its nice to see that not everywhere is the same and the earth does have so many different ways to do things.

Some say a talent, some say instinct, some say a gift, some say lucky – I say Eerie and great… Often I can sense when someone is watching me/us or something is about to happen in a set area.

I can’t tell you what, just that something and if its a good or bad thing thats about to happen and usually a rough time ahead [No longer than 20 mins so far]

Its happened a lot over the years if I look back and its a strange feeling, an instinct of knowing yet in todays general reality is impossable. It doesn’t always happen – its on occasion not a normality so very hard to measure why it happens.

Am I measuring so many factors around me predicting the likely outcome, processing many actions and posabilities and deciding which is measurably likely to happen and if thats is the case can any future event be predicted?

Is it a fate… I kinda of well… because of this then that will happen and mixed together creates like a kind of pyramid of true and falses until at last you have the true – the future at the end of the calculation. Is it still a prediction if the only posability is one.

One night I remember writing down a calculation that made sense while partially asleep – I can recall it being the meaning of why for all and it made sense, it felt so peaceful seeing there was a plan, a bigger picture than just now.

Next day Upon reading when awoken it made no sense in the logic I understand and believe in – what I’ve been brought to see as truth shaping the reality that I live in.

There are many “Energies” in this world – there is the power of electricity but this is not what I mean when I speak of Energy.

I speak of Energy as the power in the universe – the actions that occur, the movement, beliefs and nature working hand in hand that surrounds us all without the knowledge of many.

There are many ways energy is explained in many religions… Some could say the Holy Spirit [Christian] is a type of energy. And when People pray they focus their energy to God to have something happen.

Gut Feeling?
The knowing of something is this way or that… a Direction – like a prod of direction that tells you that you are correct.

I will speak more on these thoughts over the next few months but at the moment leave it here.

I love talking… It seems I never run out of things I can talk about… Its sometimes hard to get an opening but once open talk just keeps going.

I think its a great way to spend time… I do like doing things like going out, activities and even watching TV but sometimes its good to talk and listen and learn about whats happening to a friend or to many friends.

I often find it difficult talking to people althou loving to do so… If there are just the two of us, even if in a group – just the two of us talking then it seems easier but when others come into the kinda circle of space I become self conscious and stop… When they go again I continue – its a strange feeling but something i’ve noticed recently about myself.

T&B – Excellent time – Tea & Biscuits – a time to chill and chat over a cuppa and whats happened in life over since the last time we met. The funny stuff, the sad stuff, the wories and the blessings all shared through a mini community of friends.

The weather here has been very calm over the last week or so we had one day of snow and then it was gone… A true Snow day.

Its one day to go before my birthday, not sure what will happen on the supposive night out – will probably turn to more a night in and hope people will come on over instead.

The weather will be an impact too as now the place seems white and getting whiter. When I spoke with others they reckoned it wouldn’t lay… well thats a change to whats happening.

I’m quite excited to turning 30, not sure why exactly but its apparently a turning point in life.. Your not “OLD” but your not really counted as being particulary young either – your just alive and thats a good thing.