Had a good start to the day, no sleep in but woke up generally refreshed and ready to go. Saw family and friends during the day and went out in the evening.

I got some interesting gifts, quite unique but liked. Wall art, flying monkey, clothing, electricals and some money.

Party?

The plan was Go out to a pub or few and have some drinks – head back to home and have some more drink and some food and chill out.

Well that was the plan… Not many people turned up – many called in ill or couldn’t make it. Some wanted us to pick them up to get there… Don’t know how they expected us to be getting there but nevermind. We don’t do Drink Driving – its just not a good idea.

A few came out and it was a small gathering but was good all the same. Some people seemed disapointed by turnout for me but I was happy – I had a very nice night.

We ended up staying out and staying in one pub.. We got some seating early on and watched as the rest of the place filled up but we kept our seating and had lots of drinks.

I didn’t get drunk. I got merry and kept there. I had several alcho-pop sweet drinks and several shots – cinamon and other flavours – they were very tasty.

I watched as many got drunk around me – and was strange to see – I don’t think I like to get drunk… Merry/Tipsy – yes – but drunk – no! There is no point.

I hear people say “I got plastered last night – it was great!” but then say they don’t remember it but think it was great – the story changes… But whats the point if you don’t remember it all?

At the end of the night… we went back to mine… and had a few drinks but it was only the few of us that went out originally. Many that said they were coming texted to say they were not anymore – oh well.. Nevermind.

I still hope to see people – I’ve not seen many in ages. I have been promised food for other times so that should be good 🙂

I had a good day and night and woke up the next day without any headache which to be honest was nice. I’ve had headaches a long time so the wake up with calmness was very nice.

I am thankful for those that turned up… You made it really good – thank you.

Weather?

Cold. No snow, no rain, calm – so the snow was cleared and quite nice except cold 🙂

I am there.. I am 30 now… No longer in my 20’s – Am I young still? or and I old? kinda in the middle of both I think but not really feeling much different.

Just looking at life, and where I am. Where i’ve been and where I could go… What I need to do now to get there.

I think that life is very different to the outlook on life I had as a child/teen.

I look forward to the rest of the year… as everyone else catches up to being 30… A few have made it already before me.

I like to watch dance, I like to do dance – I’d love to go see Riverdance somewhere close by [then I can drive back afterwards] – I’ve found there will be a performance in sunderland in April. I intend to go, if I have the cash and can get the tickets – the ticket site is down at the moment.

It should be an interesting night, something different… Something I may go alone, or take someone – who I wouldn’t like to guess. So just a notice really as a thought – The one I aimed for was on a monday night – different day really but only one that will fit around other plans.

I’ve thought for many years how amazing it is how people dance and can move in so many different formats – Street Dance, salsa, Ball room, Night clubs, as well as many other ways including traditional country dances. How the movement and fluidity of dance mixed with music can drive a passion within and a flow can be seen and felt.

So something different to go to. A change for a change 🙂

Until later… Thanks for the reading 🙂

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As I settle down for the night, time coming up past 1am I get things ready for work tommorrow – the many layers, dinner, and putting keys out ready for a fast exit in the morning I ponder…

I look outside and see the snow… Lots and lots of snow… I looked out earlier and the paths were kinda white but you could still see the grass – Now there is no grass either just piles and piles of white snow.

There is a fox out there too… Running round on the grass, stopping and eating something but I don’t know what. I tried to get a picture – Not sure how its came out. There is snow falling, with wet windows and a camera that you cant use flash on cos of snow and blinding white I wonder if it will come out or that you can see whats there.

It looked good, I stopped and watched and listen to the weather as it patters on the window.. The knowledge that I’m warm inside and its so cold outside is kinda comforting and relaxing at the same time… Just hope the heating works in the morning.

So good night for now, and as thoughts come they will appear online 🙂

Thanks for Reading…

I’ve managed to allow everything to stop for a few days to try and relax and see what else can be done.

Its strange to not have anything planned – No dancing, no work, no trampolining, no events, no work, nobody to meet and no play – just stop and think.

While stopped I start looking, I see that life is full of stuff I probably don’t need but put there to fill in the time. I know there is always something I should be doing in some way or another but to stop and look at all that I am or could be reminds me of different things.

I see that I am not whom I thought I could be and see different ways that I can improve myself if I give it the time – be that in personality, fitness, finance, or happyness.

But to stop and look, I wonder what to do – Even stopped its as though there is so much to do, nothing planned yet so much to do… House work, garden work, fixing, tidying, organising, meeting people, talking, websites, work, research, fitness, health, and the list continues.

I have been very fortunate in life, I’ve always had people support me and still do but still I find it difficult and often make mistakes. I think its a good idea to stop every so often, and let the mind catch up so things start to make a little more sense again.