Christmas is about here, well its coming in 13 days time, and am I organised… Of course not. I’ve sorted all the presents, still need to send the cards – writing them will be a good start and wrapping presents… Bought some selotape – its strange coming to wrap with nothing to stick together… kinda pointless unless you manage some interesting folding origami that actually stays closed but that makes it too easy for people to get in.

I need to sort out a food menu, i’ve got a load of drinks: alcholic and soft drinks but food is a necessity.. for at Christmas we all eat as much as possable or at least in my experience I always remember lots of food over Christmas.

I’ve to prepare Christmas dinner this year… I’m having friends over – one person is a vegitarian which slightly complicates things but otherwise all seems good. What is on a Christmas dinner – I know turkey, and veg and stuffing but need deserts aswell and so much to organise. I’ve not got a cake or christmas pudding yet but intend to have that too…

I think we’ll put up the decorations this weekend, if we can find them all that would be good. I was looking for window sticker snowflakes but not found them anywhere but ebay. Been told their in £Pound shops but not found any there yet.

I’d like to get a real wreath for the front and back door aswell, I can get them locally to add a little more spirit. I’m looking forward to the break over Christmas althou this year i miss half the bank holidays as wouldn’t be working a Thursday anyway but will be a good time I think.

I’m getting worried about the family cat, he’s over 19 years old now and not too well. He is almost always wanting to sleep, or be fed, fussed or just heard. Recently he’s not eating much or drinking much, he has been on heart tablets for about 6 months now – they seemed to help a lot to start with and he was putting on weight but now he is loosing it again fast.

I find it difficult to imagine the cat not being around, althou I do not see him every day already. He is someone I see whenever I go to my parents place, and responds to moggy althou thats not his original given name.

19 years is a long time for a cat apparently to live, he used to be a very active cat now he’s a loud cat or asleep cat. I’ve spoken to people who say they have an old cat to find they are coming up 10 years – What does that make the moggy? I guess ancient and lucky.

He’s not looking too well anymore and not sure if he is a happy cat, he doesn’t seem to know what he wants to do – just follows us around and wants instant fuss all the time which most of us are willing to give – maybe why he keeps coming back for more. I don’t know if he’s going to last the week – He’s going to the vet in the next 24 hours, and hope some anti-biotics can fix him but with the heart problems too were really not sure… Its a poor moggy and we’ll really miss him, but rather him in peace than pain anytime.

I read in the news that people working in IT have the best parties at Christmas, well I’m the only one in IT where I work so that would be a small party of sorts.

Friday was the staff party for where I work, we went to a pub for a meal – lots of food, even more alchol – well wine… I think the table of 17 went through about 45 bottles of wine which was impressive in my eyes – especially when about 5 of us were driving so not drinking.

I thought stay for meal, and a drink – we’d be out round 9pm (started round 6:30pm) but turned out to be a really enjoyable night and we were there til closing time. Lots of happyness, joy, laughter and learning of people. Always entertaining when people drink and you dont.

I dropped a group of friend off, no point them getting a taxi they all live in the same general area. I drive as live about 20 minutes out of the area where I work. Most others were locals.

T&B

It was good to see people from T&B again – its been a while since me concentrating on work and trampolining to get through it all.

The party wasn’t particulary a party, more of a normal session of olden T&B but with a lot more cakes, and sweet stuff. It was very chilled and a good catch up. I enjoyed it.

Thanks to you all.

I was nervous, and had anxiety before the exams for trampolining, its all over and now i’ve finally got somewhere… Passed the assistant coaching course for trampolining – its only level 1 but its a start.

Now I’m back to normal sleeping, well semi-normal. Once home on sunday, I was asleep before 8pm, and back rested at about 7am the next day for work… Didn’t feel a break for the weekend but feeling happy I got through it all.

I was really nervous, and even on the day unsure of what the result would be. It felt really odd to be getting examined while helping out, but now I’ve got something totally different to add to my CV – A little more diversity instead of living in the IT world without much sight of anything else.

So glad its all over, but to go further… that is a choice, but not something i’ll do right away – I want to make sure inself I know how to do things before going further. Althou I can do it – its good to have more confidence in what I’m doing so I can best look after the students.

Looking back around 2 to 3 years ago when I got given the idea of trampolining, I thought it would be quite easy and i’d be able to sumasault and do all these wonderful moves very easily. I never realised how much work was involved and how much exercise was truely involved.

I was completly unfit, and the more exercise I do the more I realise I am not fit althou think i’m getting better. Before I lasted about 2 mins max on the trampoline before out of breath, now I’m on for ages and hadn’t really thought about being out of breath which is a positive.

The idea of helping to coach was never even a thought, it was only earlier this year I wanted to be able to understand better what was meant by terms, and why coaches told you to do things a certain way so I started the course… The bonus was I could help out and build confidence althou I still find it quite a scary thought.

I nearly dropped out when I missed the first exam call, as had been working and not had time to get the hours training/learning in… but between october and november I did, and got lots more than the required 6 which was very helpful.

I’d recommend to people to try things that you want too. Before 3 years ago I thought i’d never do anything like this, but love it so much and feels great when you help people and can see that they’ve learned something new.

The headaches have been going on for some time now. I used to think they were bad, I was wrong. I understand a version of the term “Mind Numbing” and almost wish the numbing of pain was what it meant.

It is more a knowing life continues but you must stop and pause while their is pain all over your head, around the eyes and over/in the ears and over the back of the head. Often like you’ve bumped your head somewhere but don’t remember. A queezy feeling as though something is holding your throat but not and put you off eating.

Closing eyes hurts and seems dizzy as thou I drank too much or mixed drinks and the room moves constantly. Nothing seems to cure it, Pausing and concentrating on quietness, just stopping calms and helps the pain subside for a little while.

I’ve found that Joy/Happyness can help. I’ve read that happyness and laughter can help increase endorphins and in turn pain relief – maybe thats why I like to try new fun things like Trampolining and dance.

I think i’ve always had headaches, at least for the past 5 to 10 years. I always have counted it as just headaches, but some people have suggested it a migrane. I can continue doing stuff, yet a lot slower but got to get through it all the same. I can hear things a lot louder, not voice sound but the background noises surounding us. Screens are brighter and I usually lower the contrast/brightness so I can continue on a PC or watch TV if I want too.

Pain Killers do nothing in reality. I’ve tried a combination of herbs and it seemed to work for a while. Now they make me feel queezy and sometimes sick – I stopped taking them, but now the pain is back so maybe it was working:

• Siberian Ginseng
• Feverfew
• Zinc
• Co Enzime C10
• Herbal concoction[Ginseng + guarana]
• Echenacia
• Ginkgo Biloba

I continued the last 2 but they don’t seem to be the ones that actually stop the headaches. I read that the Echenacia helps immune system and the Ginkgo Biloba can help circulation to the limbs [so I can have warmer hands/feet]

I have found that if I take 1000mg Paracetamol and 400mg Ibuprofen – The pain will stop for around 60 to 90 minutes. I’ve used it to help me get to sleep, once asleep I rest until I awake and the pain returns.

I thought it time to write about it as now its starting to worry me. It seems to get worse and last longer and takes greater concentration to return to normality.

I thought maybe it was my eye sight, so had new glasses and wear them daily. I thought maybe dizzyness was from my ears, but doctors said I was fine. It stops just as suddenly as it starts – One minute everything is normal – then a sudden sharp pain runs through behind my eyes and back of head. Feeling of preasure within the skull and it begins – a Pulse every so often and then like a constant humm just being there every so often pulsing into too much and hurting.

People have started to notice me with the headaches. I used to be able to hide it well, but it catches me off guard so I can no longer hide it so I have stopped and started to talk about it.