Thoughts

My Time in London… The next day or so

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Friday: Late start, but more exploration… I went to visit the museums – I went to the National History museum, I think I went as a child but don’t remember – this time I think I will – it was quite awesome and totally free to enter and wander. I liked looking at some of the dinosaurs or what is thought to be dinasaurs and the many other suspected creatures of the past.

How anyone can predict something took millions of years as a fact of reasoning when I can’t see how the process to measure that is, then I don’t know – I find it strange when people say that the earth is millions of years old… Strangely enough, in another part of the museum it stated that the sun, and planets only came into existance less than 10,000 years ago – so which is it? It can’t be both can it – I say neither is correct and i’d say were probably never going to be able to know.

Anyhow, History museum, Nice place – very busy. History and predictions of the future. I learned of Volcano’s; I’d known about it, but little things stuck out that I was unaware of. Makes me want to watch more of discovery channel by the emenses of information about the nature around us.

To see… Bugs, birds, dinasaurs, use of energy, fossil fuels, future plans of life, sea life, lots of people, and many more that I saw but probably didn’t quite see totally. I’d say go if your in London, nice to see so much and it was free too.

Met with another friend after they finished work, We both managed to get to station at same ish time even though we were to meet 20 minutes later. She spotted me, I only realised when she was closer… We went to Nandos – very nice chicken wrap for me – quite filling.

Afterwards more wandering, and chatting – My feet/legs are saw from walking but feel fine at the same time. I think this trip is started to help me realise some more fitness is needed but its nice to wander and explore.

Headed back near 10pm, I was back at flat by 25past, managed to get to stations just as transport arrived. Traffic doesn’t stay stopped for long in London but if you miss the currect connection there is usually another in a few minutes time.

I do think the transport system is quite amazing in London – their website for directions is great giving you estimated times and links between walking, trains, subway, and buses and offers alternative routes. The whole idea of it, its so complex yet simple to use. I really like it – the design and initial setup must have taken ages but now, very easy to use in my opinion and the “Oyster Cards” that allow transport so easily without cash and tickets mixed up.

I plan to go to the science museum Saturday, and explore a little more and just relax. The plan of relax, take some time out and read a bit aswell as visit the city has devloped into more and I like that. I’ve often planned stuff in the past but when its put to action nothing is quite right. This time, with little to no planning things are running quite excellent.

My time in London

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My plan was to come to London for a break, I hadn’t really planned anything just messaged a few friends I hoped to meet up with. The entire plan was get to London, Explore, Meet friends, Head home. I’ve got what feels like a lot done in the few days I’ve been and am here.

Arrived mid mad rush at 6pm Wednesday – the underground reminded me of school buses where its all cram in as much as possable, even thou another is coming in around 7 mins. A good journey down on the train and doing so much walking wandering.

Chinese from china town, quite late on. Seemed late, but probably really wasn’t 9pm ish I think. It seemed in a rush, everything to eat up quickly – it didn’t work.. we just took out time and chatted while eating slowly through the mountains of food produced to us.

I got shown around westminister twice, once with dad but a lot was closed so next day went and saw more. There is so many statues and books in places, and formalities – it was a lot more interesting than I thought it would be and everything so huge…. High ceilings with great shapes and designs and records of who did what or why. It felt a lot like being in a movie with everything large around you in a formal pre now layout with loads of books and statues.

Thursday was exploration day, after westminister I wandered – got the underground to a central point and then wandered through the streets – lots of shops, pubs, chill out places and most of all lots of people almost everywhere… but gorgeous weather – no idea the temperature but was warm to me.

I was meeting a friend at 5ish, ended up closer to 6ish but it didn’t matter as I was chilling out on a large grass area, looking up into the bright sun light and seeing the London Eye wheel. I don’t want to go up in it – looked quite boring, maybe its interesting – probably not.

Wandering through the streets and exploring and chatting. We went down the southbank river walk area and saw many street acts and entertainments – it was nice to see so much, we got food eventually after finding somewhere nice, and it was really nice.

How great is the idea of NHS Spine…..

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I read about how “great” and “awful” it is the idea of the NHS Spine, and all information being online and can understand why people can worry about it all. I’m not sure about it myself.

I think about some of the information stored about us already: every bank transaction is recorded – if you miss payments on anything its recorded, if your on or not on the electoral register, your credit cards limits and how much you have on things.

Think credit reports – many accounts that you’ve had in past or currently be it gas/electric, loans, bank accounts, credit cards, aswell as any other credit costs and wherever you’ve lived and had some sort of money related instance be it mortgage or gas/phone/elec/water etc supplies.

Already there is a lot of information accessable via the internet, and what is a little more… Much is recorded via a National Insurance Number, or NHS number, or id code. Think passports – and how they are now linkable to your drivers licence. How long until one identifier for one person – assuming it doesn’t already exist.

Many people are now getting GPS in their phones, taking pictures (with GPS info hidden inside image) and publishing online – being tracked wherever they go… or is it just helping them find where they want to be. Lets go link the GPS tracker into everything else.

Health care – I can understand that it could be useful if you were taken to hospital and needed something that your allergies & current medication could be considered easier. However, I can’t see how you can give permission to someone while in the point of an emergency and your meant to give permission to people to access your summary record (I think).

Its just another thing to be tracked to your id – Get a routine blood test to check for “lithium levels, B12, folate, HB1AC, U & E,INR,LFT, DNA, STIs, etc” and recorded down to your id.

Its not as though your health records are already recorded online somewhere, like when you change doctors and all records are moved between practices. Everything goes through a central health authority – but its not like they know where your registered, where you live, your NHS number, etc – I mean they never see the records do they? They can’t already be online can they and just coming to public knowledge?

But its just talk – that could never really happen could it?

Lucid Dreams of Sorts

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For a while now, I’ve been able to do lucid dreaming – the ability to conciously take control of aspects within an unconcious state (dreaming) and change/modify to my liking – the realisation that your dreaming and most of the time taking control of the situations. Its something I love to do, and often feel more rested the next day. It allows me to work through issues, problems, and sometimes play out a situation – to see how it could possably happen.

One of the main things I seem to do, is fly – I love the freedom of being able to move up and cover vast distances with the thought of moving oneself through the air. Its strange that I usually only give the ability to myself, and not the many others around me. Many times its out of fear – trying to get away from something then realising that its a dream and knowing I can get away but what funner way of doing so than flying out of reach and zooming away or to something or someone.

I would encourage people to learn lucid dreaming, or developing the abilty to do so. Its not something I can do every night, or whenever I sleep and its something that seems to happen in cycles. For weeks I’ll be unable to even remember dreams then a week where I can control what could happen. I’ve seen many places on how I may do this whole idea of lucid dreaming and taking control but not totally sure how I learned it myself.

I seem to continue some dreams over many nights, often in a row – These are not always ones I control, but are often adventures that in the time of sleep seem to cover many weeks, to months in a night. To live a life of someone else in a week and then it changes and something else happens. But months, maybe years later it continues and I can remember all of the past and often realise its a memory from a dream and that I must be in a dream so I try changing things with thought… and things change and again I am in the controlling phase again.

Why not try it? It can be fun

Standing for council

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A mixture in with recent topics really… polotics… People I know have gone for MP and in Early May they got their position. Next year I will be standing for somewhere – wrote up some of my application forms to be sent in – they took a while. I don’t know where I’ll be standing but would think I would have a good chance to get it.

I’ve always just accepted that you should always help people, and helped with calls and re-directing things for years as you should. My plan – Help people if you can and do what you can, and keep people updated even if it seems nothing is happening – keep people informed and usually its helpful to the person who reported it. Simple – but quite effective – to see something happening and not just nothing then a result.. Its good to see progress.

So, I will be standing in the council next time there is local elections which I think is next year some time. Planning is already in progress. At present we are working on a website for myself and all of the others in the party in this area… Its growing slowly and should have something on it in the next few months or so. I like the idea of keeping people informed as I’ve always wanted to be informed… and since community sites are all the way at the moment – we may aswell take advantage of them while we know how to use them.

Lost contact, changed contact…

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I, like many others try to keep in contact with people. I now seem to have many many contacts from all different aspecs of life including University, Trampolining, Spring Harvest, Church, IXth hour, close friends, polotics, aswell as family and others. I’ve not really kept in contact with people recently… its hard to find the time if I am going to get work done as well.

I find it quite difficult to keep up with all thats going on, facebook seems a nice idea to see a glimpse of whats happening and what people are up too and gives a point, reminder to some of the stuff to further ask questions about but also maybe shares a little too much details some times.

Recently I’ve cleared my contacts list from around 450+ to around 270 ish and still thats a lot of people. I got to thinking about all those people I had on there and If I was to meet them, would I stop and chat or just maybe smile and carry on. Many of the contacts were from school times, and even then I wouldn’t have really chatted with them – or called them a friend, so why keep them on the list. Initially I had many to be nosey – to see how people have changed since then and for many I’ve re-made good connections, and still making some connections now.

Blogs and stuff. Do you have one? I know I’m writing mine now. Its a place to express what I’m thinking or going through – to try and explain a bit about where I am coming from in life and share openly and easily. Leave me a message – tell me your link.

Many friends have blogs I’m aware of, but I’ve not really read any since March this year – I just stopped. There seemed so much happening that I didn’t have time to stop and read… and now to start from where I finished will take a while but i’ll catch up again.

I had not really updated mine for several months, althou still have loads to say. Having so many words, and images in my mind about all that is happening and that I can get involved with. Its an explosive time with the masses of information being processed… its all mixed up but still I want to share – be it via chat, text, email or something else – to express myself in a way thats just me.

Recently I’ve changed my phone plan – I get unlimited texts and around 100 minutes – I don’t think I’ve ever used all my minutes up that I get free with my phone, however have previously gone over on texts – hopefully that won’t happen anymore. Landline calls – I get them all free or at least included in the plan I’m on. Skype – that allows free calls too (of sorts) – Chatting on phone – something I’ve never really gotten on well with, but maybe something to try a bit more.

Website Divided

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I’ve been seperating all my websites into different categories – there is the blogs, personal & friends sites, and the business sites. Everything is now sorted (eventually) and i’ve actually updated OJM Sites – Its only been needing updated for the past 2 or 3 years.

I’ve added a load of tutorials & help guides on there from how to use the cPanel, and extensions, to how to use Joomla & WordPress which I know some people on there use. Also if you know you have free webspace with me and have not recieved the newsletter I sent out – please contact me using the form on: http://www.ojmsites.com/contact/ – You may need to update some details to keep things working.

Friday Night Out :) Good Time.

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On friday night I went to a friend from works engagement party and had a really good time. When ever I’ve been out at a work related night I’ve never drank – usually as I needed to drive home afterwards and thats never a mix I want to do. This night was different, Got dropped off and a taxi back later on – was a good plan and worked well.

I have a variety of drinks, usually either malibu or bacardi mixed with pepsi – not as great as coke cola but still worked well. I chose not to mix anything else and was thankful I didn’t. It was an enjoyable night, and was glad to be with friends.

After the engagement party, we headed into middlesbrough to one place that was quite crowded on linthorpe road. I enjoyed the music, but had stopped drinking – I know my general limits between having a good night, and having a good followed by bad night – seems I learned something else from uni after all.

We headed over to what used to be known as the purple onion in middlesbrough after about 30 minutes, and mixed in a wierd set of music – or at least wierd to me – it seemed as thou you had to be high on something more than alchol to “appreciate” the atmostphere – and a lot of people looked like they were on something. We had to pay £5 to get in – It was nice to see people, but we didn’t stay long.

The energy in the place just felt wrong, as thou we and everyone else was being sucked down a drain hole. Spiriling down into something out of place. Many were just going with the flow – others felt it very odd there too but I don’t think they saw it the same as I did.

A small group of us headed back to the other place, and enjoyed the rest of the night there. It was a lot less crowded now – I think many had moved on elsewhere after we had left. We enjoyed the rest of the night, Chatting, Dancing, Taking some really random photos, and some continued drinking althou according to facebook, seems that might have been a bad choice (hangovers).

The end of the night consisted of drinks being sold to some of the group, and then before them leaving the bar – the “security team” trying to throw people out immediatly. I think there is something in law saying that they have to give 20 mins or more drink up time after sales but never actually read that anywhere – just heard it in hearsay. However to sell a product that is unusable could probably be counted as an illegal sale or at least refundable as you were unable to use it but I’m not too sure.

We all got taxi’s home, and rested – some on Saturday were reporting on facebook that “they’ll never drink again” – maybe its just better to know when to stop… a semi-simple approach of when your drink is finished, wait 10 to 20 mins before getting another or having a swap: alchol then soft drink can work quite well too. All in all, a great time out and I’m glad that I chose to go.

Itching, addicted to chocolate n stuff

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I’ve been feeling REALLY itchy all over since about 3pm yesterday – its difficult not to scratch but I can’t as last time, my nails went through the skin – the itching continued but hurt aswell…..

Now I see a prickly rash over my arms – actually one of many wierd things happening to me recently.

Nothing new taken – just happens sometimes for a few days – think its something in the air – like a hayfever reaction then it stops again for no reason – had that one before

I had a realisation of addiction to chocolate… I could feel myself eating chocolate, and more just eating it with no real effect or enjoyment of taste and then saw my self as thou I was above looking down at me while at the same time being the me, so kinda like an astral projection above watching things happen then suddenly pulling myself together.

There is also the realisation of things around me more – as thou time slows and you can notice things around that usually you’d pass and not notice… Its wierd and yet really kewl at the same time. I think its like dream logic time, where you could have slept for 20 minutes but have memories of hours passing

Questioned Existance

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There is a lot on my mind at the moment, I worry over all sorts of little things – some that makes a difference – some that are just wierd things to worry about. I worry about money, incoming and outgoings… how will I pay for so much: Mortgage, loans, and just general maintenance and utilities. My health and fitness, along with image – and know that I am who I am from what I’ve done, or not done… I ask myself “Am I? I where I want to be in life?”

I question everything in my existance, as is it all pre-planned or do I have a choice in it all… I find my belief as true and yet conflicting at the same time. I know that God knows everything that can and does happen in advance and yet we have a choice, how is there a choice that we make if all days were pre planned… The choice was already known, so you followed without choice… Does everything happen for a reason…? Everything pre-planned – like a giant calculation that forms existance and we are just working it all out – day by day.

Some quotes about my thoughts from the bible:

Psalm 139:16: “Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them”

Ephesians 1:4-6 : “For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— 6to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves”

It is suggested in Genesis that God gave free will, a choice – for at the begginning to choose to eat or not to eat from the tree of knowledge so is there a choice or was it pre-determined as God knows all that the world would fall into darkness.

This question has always got me stuck… I’ve managed to understand the meanings in so much more, but this one – it always sticks me. Even from old and new testament both state the same style of thing… why it sticks – is it my logical mind thinking too much and trying to understand more than I should strive to do. Some people say “Everyone has a choice” and then also says “God knows everything”, and to me that contradicts itself.

I find it hard as I’m sure most people with beliefs do, and how to visualise it all.