Thoughts

No Internet

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Its strange how much you don’t realise you use it until the connection dies. This past saturday our cable internet stopped working and mid sunday when i’ve written this – it still is not working.

I’ve got my mobile working MSN, and realised I can’t play games with friends as needs the internet – no email, no news checking, no internet TV, music etc I really do use it a lot.

Outside is pouring rain, so can’t easily work outside so instead I write these things.

Realisation that in reality I depend on an internet connection to the outside world and don’t really have a backup internet connection unless you could Dial-up of which accounts you have to signup online for… kinda defeats the point really.

So being offline for a few days while at home allowed me to do other things like reading books – odd but i’d forgotten how much i enjoyed it.

Back on around 16:30 – Now i’ve got access, I don’t really fancy using it much… Nevermind.

Tasty suculent chicken thing

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I made a nice chicken thing today… No idea why I made it that way… fancied something and kinda just made it up – its quite yummy.

I got one large onion and chopped into 8ths and put in bottom of dish, added some vegi stock, garlic, leak and peppers and stirred.

Added 3 breast of chicken – sprinkled fresh chillis on top and stired in. Then added a foil tray, a little oil and some peppers, leak & Onions.

Covered the lot and let cook on gas mark 4 for an hour. Emptied the oil from the foil tray into chicken mix and returned to heat for 15 minutes.

The chicken has turned out firm and nice with kinda roasted peppers next to it 🙂 The liquid I strained and stored to make the base of a soup this week.

Tastes good.

My ingredients:

1 x leak
1 x Large Onion chopped into eighths
2 x peppers chopped in to chunks
1 x Vegi Stock cube, 1x Chicken stock cube
1 to 2 pints of hot water
4 x Garlic Cloves
2 x Chilli Peppers deseeded finally chopped

Trampolining…

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Its something I’ve been doing a while now… and I am slowly learning. Over the past month I seem to have been learning a lot faster or maybe just more willing to try new things again.

The only thing thats changed is that now i’ve started wearing contact lenses and everything seems more balanced, focused plus I don’t need to worry about knocking my glasses

I see people try it and seem to pass my level within two weeks of going which is annoying but I’m happy where I am.

I would like to be able to do sumasaults, forward and backward and think over time I will be able too – at the moment thou I’m still on the basics.

Front Drops – I was always terrified of them… maybe from the amount of times its went wrong and I’ve face planted the trampoline or bent myself in a wierd shape hurting for a while…

Front drops have become easier – The latest few things i’ve learned is seat drop to front to seat again and Back drop to front. Its getting easier but still quite off putting sometimes but no faceplants in months so thats a good thing.

I really enjoy the trampolining, and have made quite a load of good friends there too – everyone of them unique and supportive in different ways.

My favorite saying in trampolining: “Higher Higher…”

Dance Power

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To see the power and energy in dance, while loads of people dance together is quite overwhelming if you allow yourself to feel the energy.

I’ve noticed in life there are different energies – like feelings of power about you. There is blessed spirit power from God, there is a kind of nuetral power that is not focused but exists, and then a power of negativity and dispair.

Many use dance as expression and a way to well get someone to go home with, but it can be more powerful – to help extend feeling through fluid motion.

The other night, I found a friend at the Student union Awards night I wasn’t expecting. We just saw each other in passing at the students union but later on bumped into each other a few times.

I got to talk, and we danced… I discovered she had also done salsa dancing – I could see from the basic count she was doing and general dance – It was really enjoyable to well kinda salsa dance, althou the music was really too fast for it.

Face the Fear

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I’ve been trying recently to do things that fear me usually – to face the fear and get out and progress in life instead of hiding around a what if.

This past week in trampolining I managed a front drop easily, and then seat to front – doesn’t sound like much but its something i’ve struggled with for months and now I can do it. Can I replicate it wednesday now i’ve been thinking about it? Lets see.

Theres things I got past at Spring Harvest, but that will come when finally writen up. Soon I will be doing an 100ft Abseil drop in Guisbrough. I’m terrified of heights but think I can get past it:

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Thanks 🙂

Dream Alternative Reality – Part 1

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What if the dream world was not just a dream but a possable alternative reality where the memories of here and now are mixed and able to be displayed and acted out in another place.

A strange dream is what I had or moved to an alternative reality for a few hours – in this place only 35 minutes passed – in the other days had passed.

While out with friends I was in a park, we were playing games outdoor – something we’d not done for years. It was so relaxing to get away from the work world and be with friends and just chill out.

Games like hide and seek, frizbee, tag, stuck in the mud, rounders, football – just a mixture of active games that we used to play as kids but never now relax and do anymore.

I feel so energised and was running around in a field and was suddenly walking down a street where everything had changed. Things around me looked very old but new at the same time. The style had been dated but seemed to be built that way.

I had fell into what seemed to be the past and for some reason I was in blackpool. I wasn’t there before so it was very odd. I don’t know if it was exactly as it should be.

I was watching the many people walking places, playing by the sea and talking to each other. The occasional arguments but generally a peace with kids playing in streets and calm weather.

One person invited me in, saying I looked lost and gave me some food and drink. They said I had a strange accent and they’d not seen me around. I felt relaxed and welcome and accepted the food and drink – it was tasty althou the water tasted a little funny.

I asked the date as people do, and they told me 19th April 1959 – I was suprised by the year as I was in 2009 earlier that day. The shock promted them to ask me more but I couldn’t share that – they’d think I was crazy.

I met with other people around the same age as me and younger – they were quite active, I remember asking one person lots of details to write here when I got back. If the young lady of 1959 in the shop by the side reads this, please get in touch – it wasn’t just a dream.

I wonder if they read this now in this date, I wonder if they kept the note – I said in 50 years checkout the internet and go to this address, I said to remember and lock it away til now – Who knows the alternative reality could truely be real and not just imagination

The dream feels like a series – a connection to somewhere else so maybe I’ll have a lot more to say. So for now…. End of Part 1

On my Bike..

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A friend gave me a spare bike he had. He offered me it sometime last year and I got around to collecting it last week. I got a hand pump and blew up the tyres and checked the breaks. I dont have, lights, a lock or a helmet but last time I rode was before helmets.

I went out for a short time this saturday afternoon. It was a suprise I couldn’t do it right away – my balance and co-ordination was all over the place – after a few minutes it came back to me how to do it so I guess its true you always can ride once learnt.

It was harder work than I expected and there were lots of gears, last time I had a bike was the early 90’s and I had 5 to 7 gears max – I kept clicking through them on this bike by accident and realised why people dont wear jeans much on bikes (it gets caught)

Its another fitness thing I should do, I am so unfit now to how I used to be. I remember when young and little being able to ride for miles just for fun not for the exercise but actual fun.

Now I lack in energy to do it – think my diet has a lot to do with it and were not so active anymore – even at uni – drove to uni but it was walking all over campus and taking the stairs (I hated the lift) and it didn’t matter if I was on 2nd floor or 10th I still took the stairs.

Roller Blades

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I have a pair of roller blades and a selection of pads to wear of which I look quite entertaining in.

I’ve tried teaching myself a few times to skate in them, so far i’ve not got very far. I often fall over and am very grateful of those silly looking pads that break the fall quite well.

I can remember flying though the air and landing on the pads, friends rushing over to see if I was OK and it was strange that all the impact had been stopped in those pads – they didn’t look strong enough althou I was glad for it.

The idea to learn would be a way for exercise and transport at the same time. You can get all over the place on roller blades – its like walking/running but not 🙂

A friend from uni times used to skate to uni each day – they only lived within the town centre so it wasn’t far but they got across campus very quickly.

Old Games… of my past anyhow

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Many years ago, in the time when a 386 machine was new and there was no graphic cards for the home user. PCs were there for working on not particularly games…

There was a few games that were fun that I used to enjoy playing… It was generally Shareware, Freeware or Public Domain
– as you got them for free as well as a few bought ones.

Favorites were: Worms, PGA Golf and Scorched Earth (which i’m told came from the amiga era) – I often wonder what would happen if I was to play them on PCs of nowadays. These were early 90’s games – great fun – often simple but fun.

I’ve came to find the new updated version of scorched earth that needs a bit more power of a PC than the olden days but it just as much fun if a little more difficult… Its all in 3D like so many games are now.

• Game: Scorched Earth 3D

• Game: Worms

• About Shareware, Freeware or Public Domain

Fun Times 🙂

Am I only one half by being single?

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This is what I thought while alone. I’ve felt alone for a long time although I have so many friends to support me i’ve not had another person to share with for a long time.

Over the past week I’ve been at spring harvest over the easter break time and picked up a few things that made sense.. One was about being only part of a person.

I need to be a full person before looking for “the other half” – we should both be full and able to exist easily without one-another: I’m not saying I want to be alone, just that I want us both to always be happy. Missing people is expected – I don’t want to be in the situation where I feel I can not go on by being alone or without someone.

A little story someone told was about a chair… Strange as it sounds it made sense.

You get a chair, and chop it in half. Half is you and half is a partner. Your love, passion etc are the sticky tape between you and add a bit of pressure and you’ll get through it – add a lot and you both break apart.

Then imagine a full chair – you are both full people – ready in life for anything – you come together and work closely together – one on the other making a very strong surface. I’m sure there will be things that get in the way and do put pressure on you but you are much stronger as you are full people.

So before I start looking for another, I am seeing how to be full again – its been a while but I see it now as a posability again.